Flu on friday!~

Salam peeps~

How's your week so far?Mine is hardly noticeable and tadaaaaaaaa...we're in Friday already!Which is a bliss!~
But today I'm with flu..and its not nice. Cannot concentrate on office work..let alone to do some detailed designing!What's a designer, without his/her designs?So I feel quite useless this morning.

Did I mention before that Iman's babysitter has already been warded for delivery for pre-mature contractions since Monday. She's in her 34th week if I'm not mistaken. And Alhamdulillah it's school holiday-so Iman is now being taken cared of by her daughters. Semua dh anak dara so dh bleh jg baby sebesar Iman! He's a tough, active and choosy 9.5mth old lil boy already right now. So his stranger anxiety is taking phase for his age making him to refuse/cry people he doesn't like or not being used to.This stage is quite hard on me as well as in several occasions, he only wants me! Even daddy is a no-no.Alahai..just a phase in Malay culture we call it as 'manja nk adek baru'. :)

Iman with Biskut Rusk.Nyum nyum!~

Frankly, kdg2 i feel so sorry for Iman. Guilty actually to be exact. Feeling guilty of always having to be away. Feeling guilty of already tired and cranky at nights when he wants to play and tell me how he missed me all day. Guilty of being cranky in the middle of the night, when he needs a fresh bottle of milk and can't wait a minute more..as he wants it NOW mommy..NOW!~ Guilty of not being able to play with him all weekend due to house chores, weekend classes..etc etc. Guilty of not cooking purees and porridge for your every day and substitute with bottled Heinz or boxed Cerelac.Guilty of not being able to buy you the most expensive diaper choice on the rack, yet opting for Huggies dry..and still complaining how too much diapers you wear in a month.
Ahh..too many guilt.

Is it only me? Or all working mothers with small children feels the same?Entahlah..
Nak kata busy melampau di office, kdg2 xbusy pun-balik umah melepek juga. Xsempat lipat kain juga. Ajak hubby tapau kat pasarmalam juga.Alahai..

Ok lah. Enough with the ramblings.
Just sometimes, its good to have a blog just to express your piece of mind. And its good that sometimes you just don't give a damn what others think of you for just being yourself. Be confident and just live up your life the way you want it to be. Say your thoughts..but remember to always be nice. As people will treat you how you treat them :)

Ohh..how I want to tell these to Iman and baby Z. Mommy pray may both of you grow to be strong, intelligent, pious, healthy, nice and confident people.May you two be liked be others and always fall into the good crowd of people, find your own ways in figuring what's good and what's bad, yet always be humble. Amin :)

Ok now let's work.Design.Argue. Agree.
Flu-day or not.

Have a euphoria Friday peeps!~






Love,
Zahra