Self challenge

Hi guys

Hows life..I know its October and things are quite rough to meet year end's targets. Ive started a challenge to myself to list 3 simple things that made me happy that day early this month. Well today is day 23 and it is alhmdulillah still consistently being written everyday in my whatsapp status. Yes public! haha. Actually Ive started two challenges this month but lets talk about this one first.

Well, as the name goes, it is as simple as writing 3 things you feel happy/grateful/syukur for the day and it should be continuously written every single day for 41 days consequently to make it a habit. At first yes, its really hard to start with. I was too stressed everyday, i had so many unhappy things happening making it so difficult to write even a single happy thing. But i started with simple things like, i'm happy i woke up breathing today, my kids are happy and healthy, and my husband is beside me. Yes those kinda simple things. And yet it became much more easier by day. And to date, some days i have more than 3 things to be syukur of for the day. Alhmdulillah. 

Well, i am quite aware that by now mental health level of Malaysians is at a very alarming stage. People are too immensely stressed with work related tasks, economical issues, and also unnecessary competitions between kids they have. Everybody wants to be supermom, everyone wants their children gets the best of the best and be the creme of the crop, but this is actually very sickening and in fact the main factor why some fall into the mental disorders without even realizing they are. For me, its better to follow the low and live. Let it be and move on. Be positive, think positively and try by all means to ease other people's way.

 And I pledge to myself to try to heal myself, avoid all stress factors and take this matter seriously for the people i love. Let it be a small start like this :) Keep in mind peeps : I matters. 

So, let keep all writings sweet and simple. may i reach the 41st day of the happy list campaign.

Oh for the 2nd campaign is to achieve 10.000 steps per day challenge. yes that is a whole different thing. so let write it may be in another time.

Happy working uols.

Love 

Zahra

Ramadhan Day 9 : Routine dh membiasakan diri

Ramadhan day 10 already alhmdulillah. and the below were pics from the days before. Day 8, 9 and before that. All is well, and fasting had became a routine, and if Allah's will I"ll be finishing 10 days today like everybody else despite of the pregnancy :)

Inshallah.

Semalam dgn tak bersahur, mmg melepek betul. By 9am dah mcm habis tenaga. Baby pun dah xmenendang seperti biasa maybe depleted bekalan glucous dlm darah. hajatnya klu mmg betul2 rs nk pengsan, baru nak berbuka. By 12, dh lapar betul tp i tried to conserve whatever energy left dgn kurangkan gerakkan and keeping my mind busy with design works. Tiring but quite distracting, so it worked. Dapat siapkan 2model 3d and 1full medium scaled 2d drawing by 3pm! By 4pm dah mmg out, so p jalan2 kat cafe tgk apa lauk ada. Time ni mmg bersungguhlah semua nak beli and semua nampak sedap. I ended up buying some popiahs, and sambal sotong, sayur kailan sikit, which costed me rm10 juga! kata nk cuci mata konon. The sambal was marvellous, berebut2 mkn dgn iman, my hubs xbrapa berehi kata org kelantan. Ptg ni kita on a mission nk p candat sotong di cafe lagi lah...lapar pula rasa.

And...finally by Maghrib I made it! We made it! Lega! :)

These two munchkins mmg tak puasa. Iman jalah dah finished 3 half days as of yesterday, Amsyar with none. baru 4 thn, kencing pun kadang2 terlajak dlm seluar lagi tak apalah. So good for Iman! nanti tuntut duit raya ya drp daddy! I xpaksa, Iman yg sendiri nak berpuasa. Tapi smlm dia mengadu laparlah puasa, iman tak suka puasa puasa. Bila dipujuk kata org Islam kena puasa, Allah yg wajibkan. Allah sayang org berpuasa. Nabi Muhammad pun sayang ummat yg berpuasa. Dah cukup puasa barulah boleh raya! Today, dia kembali bersemangat nk puasa, tapi kita tgk mcmana, belum tiba masa nak paksa paksa puasa :)

But for tarawikh, daddy dah banned these two drp ikut ke surau..hehehe..baru 4 kali ikut kot, tapi mashallah, tak boleh dibawa lagi gamaknya. Kuat main and kacau org yg ada (--") Sorrylah kepada jemaah surau yg lain, anak2 sy mmg excited and suka menghayati ramadhan macam ini..so today, berjemaah dgn mommy ajer. takyahlah ke surau. Mommy mmg xlarat nk berkejar kejar jemaah di surau, so i tend to solat alone in my room yg ada aircond fuhhhh (eksyen kemain nak ekon ekon pula kan?)..alhmdulillah slow and steady, im doing it at OKU phase.he he he..

Alhmdulillah so far so good. Masak mana yang mampu. Sahur pun ala kadar selalunya dgn nasi goreng simple simple je atas request daddy. Mlm ni nak try buat tortillas dgn beef blackpepper ala subway ke utk sahur tukar sikit menu, asyik routine nasi goreng ;p 

Homemade kerabu mangga dgn mangga imported dr blkg rumah mak ;p

Puasa ke-5 aritu, daddy bawak kami semua berbuka buffet di Grand Dorsett Subang. Mmg bagai org ngantuk disorongkan bantal lah dpt peluang berbuka buffet yang ada theme middle-east mcm ni, mostly fusion dishes lah sbnrnya, mandi kambing ada, sup gearbox pun ado. Apa yg i dok teringin nak makan dok ada, so tersangatlah happy :) Yang paling best ada baklava, and roti with cream cheese, hummus, olives and salads. Mmg favorite :) The winner dish for that night was the turkish ice cream/gelato yang perisa strawberry. Mmg thumbs up! Amsyar p ulang 5 cones and then muntah :p Sukalah kan budak2 bila dpt free flow of ice cream mcm tu.. Alhmdulillah rezeki baby, thank you daddy bwk kitorg semua :) Next year bawak lg okeh?

Dah day 10 ni, dah terbiasa berpuasa, alhmdulillah. Mudah-mudahan berkekalan energy level utk terus berpuasa tahun ni wpn mencabar dgn keadaan baby yg active dlm perut, and agak letih sb berat badan yg sgt gebu (--")

Salam Ramadhan ke-10 :)

Keep calm and read Qur'an :)

Love 

Zahra

Ramadhan day 2

Ladies and gentlemen! Guess what?

I cooked! For iftar yesterday! Yay! Haha kugagahkan jua okeh? Tp for the desserts, mmg daddy and the kids got the bazar ramadhan task and came home with tepung pelita, roti john and sira pisang :) 

Buat sikit ikan 3rasa, ayam blackpepper and daging goreng. Siap! :) Tu cerita semalam. Harini belum tentu! Kikiki. Mak mertua pun ada kat rumah ni, baru smpai. Taktaulah kot dia yg masak or saya yg masak petang ni. Apa yer menu korang? Maybe menggulai je kot ptg ni. Kari ayam w kentang ke kann..daging merah, petola masak air. Ok x menu? nak menjamu mak mertua dtg. Dari sebelum puasa plan nk buat one whole month punya menu. sampai laaa....apa pun takdak.hehe

Kalau ikutkan kudrat, mmg xlarat betul rsnya ni (T_T) smlm demam demam mengemop lantai, basuh baju, basuh toilet semuanyalah..yalah nk ada tetamu. boleh plak hubby kata kenapa kalut sgt? mama je nak dtg pun. Heyyyy...mestilah kalut okey! Rumah kita ni bkn sentiasa kemas. Weekend aritu pun ber activity mengecat di rumah mak kita. So mmg xsempat kemas sgt rumah sendiri :p

Sahur setakat ni ok. alhmdulillah.tp still snooze at 4am! ampun! Mmg xleh buka mata. Makan simple and milo yg daddy bancuhkan. Activity mengaji pun belum mula (--") Inshallah mlm ni kita start after tarawih. Seronok kan bulan ramadhan? Rsnya the most awaited month of the year :)

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RESIPI CHOC CHIP COOKIES FAMOUS AMOS VERSION SIMPLE :)

Salam Maal Hijrah mommies!~
And happy new hijrah year 1434H!
Hope that our resolution for this year becomes better this year.

This is a recipe altered by me and aliyya, mak su Iman& Amsyar on Deepavali day. It turned out to be marvellous!heart winner for my lil picky eater iman. Worth the try :) Saja2 je buat sebenarnya..dh lama tak ber cookies...hehe

My version ni ada letak cornflakes sket..lg crunchy lg sedap.bleh juga boh raisins klu suka chewy2 sket :)

INGREDIENTS

1 bar of butter 250g
1cup of vegetable oil
4cups++ flour
1tbs corn flour
1 tsp baking powder
1cup sugar
1 egg
2 handsfull of cornflakes crushed
1handful roasted almond chopped
1 cup choc chips..more if you like.
1 tsp vanilla essence


METHOD

1. Cream butter,oil and sugar.
2. Add in the egg and vanilla essence and continue on creaming.
3. Fold in flour, corn starch and baking powder-little by little.
4.Add in choc chips, cornflakes, almonds.
5. Make sure dough is stiff enough to mould into small balls. If too watery add a lil more flour.
6. Make small balls of your dough, and rearrange your cookies on a buttered baking tray.
7. Bake for 10-15mins in a pre-heated 150degC oven.
8. Ready to serve! Yeay!!

Boleh add in oats/walnuts kalau suka, ikut suka :)
I bet you this recipe will not dissapoint you (dissapointed woman who doesn't like to push heavy cars also could try.. ;p)


Happy cuti-day everybody! :)

Love,
Zahra

Daily Routines

Salam.
Just feel like writing today. Luahan hati.

Sometimes i think life is quite harsh on me.But the more you think of it, the more its torturing.So i stopped thinking and daydream of all the luxuries and what other people are indulging in.And just move on. This is my life so i should shape it as i want it and just let be.I have a demanding cute 21mo hunny bunny and another exclusively breastfed 5 and a half mths old sugar donut to spend my time with at night. So sometimes i just let go of all the house chores and use my little time to play with my lil men :). 

And alhamdulillah ever since, i managed to cook our daily dinner every day by now. Let it be just one main course with plain rice, but we're happier. I try not to be angry at Iman at almost all times and let his curiousity develops. Main lah all mommies pots and pans. My tupperwares and tipuwares. My onions and garlics. Even my bag of colourful straws. He just loves to be at the kitchen with me. And i'm still trying to adjust to love his presence as well instead to be annoyed as before.  At his age, he imitates a lot. How i cook, how i wash my pots, how i cut my veges. I find it so cute tho. And at the end of the day when he's already asleep, i'll just keep back ALL the mess. Kadang2 bukan byk pun, but before- all the melarang, and keeping it back once he put it out then repeating the act every 10 mins just did left me much more exhausted. 

I tried to end my day early and start again the next morning earlier than i should.By 11pm, we tried to have all lights off already. Except on some days it always extend to 10 to 15 mins more. But why should i be so strict. Just follow with the flow and move on.

I'm still struggling with my milk supplies. Its just another 16 days to go for 6months full BF. For Amsyar to be 6mo. With all the ups and downs- my frozen stock thawed, my breast pump broke-down. Small issues actually but some how it did effected me and my motivation. With tight budget constraint-i think this happens to all small young families- buying a new pump is really not in our monthly budget unless the management surprisingly nak bg bonus or increase our pay. Payday is always another payday. Kira cukup blanja secukupnya. At least we don't want to be in debt with orang, Pinjam sana sini. Hutang tak terbayar. Sesak2 sket- at least we are eating and living on our own-takde nak berhutang2 uang. Eh, panjang pulak cerita..asalnya bab pam yg rosak aje. The pump had already served me well-dah cukup haul dh. And now I'm with spectra manual that happened to be my spare pump one time ago. Kecik but i love the suction. 10mins pump is already sufficient and its really a handy pump. Cuma jangan kena time berpenyakit 'M' la.. malas and mengada. Malas pump manually. Mmg xdapek nak tolong la kan?Another 16days zahra-then we could support with solid food :) And inshallah I think we could make this happen.The first stepping stone. Bila dh bleh start solid dh jatuhlah gelaran exclusive BF tu. Takpelah kan. Then we target further, for 1yr pula :)

Nights are really hectic for me as a working mommy and I'm still struggling to cope. My night routines. Just to put it here..cause maybe some time ahead- i'll not be having this routine again.

7pm-play, read to iman, mandi, solat sama sama, play some more, BF Amsyar while resting. Play some more with both.

8pm- start to cook while keeping the 8pm news on : sambil masak sambil 'dengar' berita heheh (bila ada berita menarik-lari2 ke depan tv tgk tv), clean house sket, run the washing machine, check the bottles while daddy put both babies to sleep.well, most of the time tak berjaya la..iman still playing, amsyar still wiggling.

9pm- dinner. jemur baju. kemas dapur. kemas rumah. clean iman yg makan dinner sepah sapu kuah ayam the whole baju and tumpahkan air :p

10pm- Finally, TV time. Lipat kain. Sedia kan bottles for next day supply.Some more playing if Iman's still awake, prepare the boys bag for tmrw. Pump another round if possible.

11pm- Brush teeth with Iman (still trying to do this). Pray.Sleep.

If time belajar - 11pm - start study/homework/coursework.

12 midnite- pengsan.

If you happen to be reading this. Thank you very much. This is just a diary of my routines, whereas i might be forgetting it one time soon and this entry will still be here to refresh my memories of how my days were when i was a young mother of two babies :)

Till then,

Have a nice wednesday peeps,

May our day today be much better than yesterday. Inshallah.

Love, 

Zahra.

Surat Cinta for me...

I got this on my windscreen yesterday.

Dear Dissapointed Woman,

I am trully sorry i blocked your car and my car is heavy. I will buy a viva next time.
My office is 15mins away from the parking lot, so sorry that i'm always late.
Feel free to ask the guard to assist you to push my car next time.
Don't be disappointed anymore.Senyum senyum ya.
Lain kali tinggal la hp number. Boleh kita berkenalan.
Letak la at least plat number kereta you.i pun xingat siapa i block.nanti kalau nampak kereta you i park lerr jejauh sket.

And really nice of you remembering my plat number and printing the letter as well.
Kdg2 mmg xsalah guna printer office utk surat2 cmni.kekekekek.

Peace kak..no war.

Love,
Zahra

SICK BAY

October the 23rd.

Payday.(V^_^V)*lompatbintangduaplohkali*
Amsyar's 5th month old birthday!~
Doing well. Excellently well. Diapers skrg pkai size L.
Iman's alhamdulillah-doing fine. Finally yesterday was vomit-free day! Yeay!Worth my EL.
As of last sunday weighing session in SALAM Hospital- he is already 11kgs.
Mommy yg puzzled sebab xmakan pun gain weight. Acaner tu?

Daddy's also recovering. Tulah main embun lg pas abes piala FA aritu!~
Demam till 39.5degC. Doc terus bg MC.
Xpayah muntak2 terus dpt ;p

Mommy la play nurse whole weekend.









Mommy's not well tho~
Pening+muntah.
Maybe sebab letih jd nurse whole weekend.
Maybe laa kan?


Hoping that the UPT test nak ambil ptg ni turns out single-line sahaja.
Matik la mommy!~

For Drama Kings.Especially :)

Happening tomorrow...
Hubby's going. I'm not.
Looking to support ATM la for that. hahahahahha! gelak jahat ;p

To be strong is not easy.

Tajuk sbnrnya tidak menggambarkan kandungan penulisan.
This is actually a e-diary entrance. Nothing much. Just my day.
Yesterday.

Semalam was quite a horrible day for me. Iman was unwell-he was vomiting, not drinking milk and berak berak. In 4hrs (7.30am-11.30am) he had vomited 4times at his BS and pass motion twice. At 1.30pm we went to fetch hime and brought him to our favorite clinic nearby.

Mak on the other hand was in Putrajaya Hospital havng her cataracts removed. A full anaestetia (how to spell this?help!-i even could not spell gyneocology -see?)..ok lah she had her body full bius, which left her feeling very nauseous and could not walk straight. She was admitted at 7.30am, was the first in line for the operation theater and was dicharged at 1pm. Cepat kan? I was really worried all the time at work (yes, i worked yesterday) and could not concentrate. At 1pm, i finished all my tasks for the day and was granted with a half day.

That is when we fetched Iman and baby amsyar and all their clothes and milk and all those what-so-ever baby needs from the house.Kept the EBM from the morning session and off we went. Iman was already flat but was really content to see us. He had just a bottle of juice with him made by his BS. My mom (tho br lepas surgery) reminded me that milk will just induce vomitting. Betul la tu kot. I'm not sure.

Sampai kat clinic, doctor kata maybe just keracunan makanan. Just? I hope so. She prescribed us with ubat tahan muntah, some ubat angin and oral dehydration salt to be consumed. We'll see from there la kot. Bought some pisang goreng and air kelapa on the way for him and alhamdulillah, iman looks pinker. But still he rejects milk.

That night, at mom's after monitoring his condition, i gave him milk. 1 hour after that, he vomitted.

Again.OK..no more milk. I've made some thin milo for him. So that he could go to sleep. He slept. We brought him home. at 12midnite- he vomitted again. Despite all the ubat tahan muntah. I was already exhausted, after all the cleaning of Iman's mess, cooking at Mom's for all her guests before who came to visit and all. I pumped some more milk for Amsyar's miss out sessions for the day and passed out somewhere near 2am. 

I woke up at 5am with Iman's sobbing. He already poo-ed in his diapers. Maybe he was not confortable and was forced to wake up. We went washing off his mess in the early hours and tried to get some more sleep afterwards.At least if could get another hour would be already nice for me. Amsyar was already awake that time. His morning milking time. His routine. But no-Iman was still sobbing. Hubby gave him some plain water so that he would doze off, but no-he was still sobbing. By last, we end up Iman on my left and Amsyar on my right latching on.

***

That was this morning. Now i'm already at work-still exhausted after my morning coffee. I'm awfully sorry for Iman that i could not be there beside him today. As i need to work. This is the worst feeling ever. Leaving your own sick child. I feel like quitting my job to just be home for them. I hope kak wan my babies' caretaker will do her best for them but still, it should never be at par of how we treat our own children.

If you are a stay at home mom and happen to read this- please be really really grateful that you have your time to raise your own children. And have a single income that could support you to live in harmony. I wish i could quit my job and be at home, but really- today's economy doesn't allow me to do so. I think I'm not alone.

I just need to be strong for now and pray for the best.

And just continue working.

Bento Jumaat :)

Pagi jumaat sejuk2 ni, bwk nasi minyak left-overs from dinner mlm td :)

Aahh..yes! Smlm I have managed to cook nasi minyak for dinner!

Hubby was so happy for the dinner i've prepared for him..he took another helping of it.

Lari diet yang..hahaha.

Yeay! Another notch of achievement for home-made dinner for me :)

Masak actually for 3person tp my brother yg live in with us xbalik pula mlm td.

So, ber nasi minyak la kita pg2 ni :)

Intended to take pics of our dinner smlm and share the recipe sb it's darn simple..tp br hidang,pusing nak amek camera..ada org dh terjah nasi dia..hehehehe~

One of his favorites sbnrnya nasi minyak ni.

Alhamdulillah, he loved my version.

Just a quick update.

Have a nice day ladies!

Mlm ni jgn lupa TRW vs Red Giants!!

Tp mlm ni sy tgk bersama anak2 aje..cik Zulhalimey syg sy tu dh beli tiket RM15 nak g tgk kat stadium SA.

Takpelah..tgk kat stadium Astro pun OK juga :)

Jom kerja!!

Love,

Zahra

RESIPI CREAM PUFF SOS KASTARD SIMPLE

I made this last Sunday.
Easy peasy..that's why i've made it.hahaha.
klu recipe pelik2 bahan lebih 10.i mmg surrender awal2 ;p
Original recipe was from here. TQ cik epal :)

Terjuih2 kastard nya..

This is hubby's fav. Mine too actually.
Thankfully dia mkn dekat 20pc kot skali ngap.
And asyiklah kata sedap.kena pd tekak dia agaknya.alhamdulillah

Well-tips ye kwn2..klu nk wife ulang masak benda yg sama.Sila puji byk kali..hahaha



So this is the way how to make it ;)


INGREDIENTS


PUFF

1cup butter (125g)
1cup plain water(250ml)
1cup flour (150g)-ayak
4 eggs
Vanilla essence

CUSTARD CREAM

2 tbs corn flour
2 tbs custard powder
2 eggs
1.5 cup full cream milk
3 tbs sugar
Vanilla essence

Icing sugar

METHOD

1.Heat water + butter on stove in a pan until butter dissolves

2. Once dissolve add in flour a bit at a time while stirring continuously until flour finishes.

3. Turn off heat.

4. Stir in eggs one at a time until finish all 4eggs. Until it becomes a flowy-like consistency.

5. Pipe into small desired shape onto a baking sheet or a greased tray.

(me-i don't have a pipe..so i jemput2 kan. see?hehehhehe)

6. Sprinkle/dab some plain water on the dough surface so that it turns out nice brownish done ;)

7. Bake in a 200degC pre-heated oven for 30mins :)

Tadaa..fresh from the oven!

For the custard, combine all ingredients in a small pot and whisk on low heat until it curdles nicely. bukan curdle la sbnrnya..it will become a thick nice creamy custard sauce.

Once the puffs are finished, cut pockets in the puffs and spoon in your creamy custard sauce.

Dust off some icing powder on top.

And voila!!!

Sedia utk santapan suami tercinta :)

Heavenly food does not really need hard work don't they??

*wink*

Cuba jgn xcuba :)

Love,

Zahra

Fridays are always the best day of the week!!

Its 1.30pm and i'm already in no mood for work ;p
Lotsa plans for tomorrow perhaps..leaving me enthusiastic to wait for tmrw.
But still, if daddy can't take half day tmrw-plans will just remain as plans.
Tak boleh execute.
But mommy always have plan B handy tho..hehe~

So lets do blogging.


***


Last night my ex-student head was on TV. Suzardi Maulan.
Aired on my ex-teacher's show : Ust Wan Akashah & Ustzh Bahiyah. on Tv9
Was intending to watch, but fell asleep in the middle of the show.
After cooking and all the cleaning..tertido dpn tv sambil susukan baby Amsyar.

And when i woke up...wallaaahh-rumah dh siap berkemas,kain berlipat, lantai bersapu.
Amsyar's bottles were also already cleaned and line-up!~
Buka mata..nampak semua mcm bersinar2..sebnrnya berpinar sb still ngantuk.
Hehe..


Alhamdulillah.
Thank you, hubby!
I love you for that..I love you always :)




***


Just to share this actually today.

I have stumbled across a nice website..a good one for me at this moment too.
Basically it has all you would like to know to plan to play and to handle toddlers.
And help to get them creative too..
Owh i like!!

http://creativewithkids.com/

Ok iman..mommy ada plan baik punya dgn kamu :)
Ok weekend plan no.1 revealed already :)

I remembered playing pudding on aluminum foils with my own mom when i was little.We write and draw using pudding..and when we were tired already we ate the pudding stuck at our fingers. Messy yet fun!~
And how we glued on crayon nye abuks (sharp the crayons with a shrpener to get these lovely abukss) to make a collage of our own.
My pre-school homeschooling sessions with mak were always fun as i could remember.
Yups it was.

Mom was still at school by that time (mak was 19 when she got me :)), and could not afford pre-school.
So i was home-schooled. I could read and write in dual languages at age 3 and could count to any number at 4.

Thank you mom.i love you~~

My mom was trully a good handler with kids.
I wished i could be like her,tho...
I jenih tak sabar.*sigh*




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Congrats to my BIL Hani Ludin (Zaynab's hubby) for his masters convo tomorrow!
Dah convo dh. M.Eng-Pure mechanical plak tu.ahhhh..
Jeles mode!

OK-weekend plan no.2 revealed.
So UIA, here we come!! Nice to be back on grass we have always been playing on.

So.
When would be mine plak?hmmmmm..
Hmm...


Soon.Inshallah!~


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Other agenda's planned as well :
Acheh..plan mesti baik kan??




Nak buat this :)
First trial..so keeping my fingers crossed.

Cream Puff pics yg di google ;)

and also attending my old friend's wedding.ini antara dlm senarai wajib pergi saya nih ...

hehehe..
plans mesti baik punya kan??
pdhal weekends itu adalah hanya dua hari.


Have a lovely weekend darlings!~

Love,
Zahra





ps-ada plan juga nak power-pumping weekends ni..nk selit tang mana pulak tu.huhu (--")

A confession to make

I have some things i would like to jot down here.
I don't want to keep it anymore and make my heart bleed.






Sometimes things are too subtle and sensitive to be discussed outloud esp when it involves the in-laws.
No-no..my in-laws are ok.
but i have learnt that i have to set my limits.

And every time this happens- I love my own family ever more and am grateful they're always there. 
A thing i always took for granted before. I'm so regretting it now. 

My sisters are always my strength, people i could confide and expect to give me their all. 
My brothers, my protectors, my helping hands.
Eternal bonds.


***







All these happened recently.
During raya





***




Sometimes, a small token of tQ would be already great.
Your hantarans are made by hand.By great effort and time.
With two very small children around. With a big wound not yet healed a month after giving birth.
Tengok pun tak.Apatah lg nk appreciate.
Tahu mengarah shj.

Bygkan yer.
She announced the wedding by Apr.
I gave birth by May.Confinement ended by end July.
Ramadhan started by end July
Wedding was on 3rd of EidulFitri.

Bleh pulak bila minta dia dtg tlg2 potong ribbons.
Or if at least could look after the small babies dia bleh pulak kata;

" sape suruh setuju on the 1st place nak buatkan hantaran.boleh je cr org lain buatkan"

Mmg dasar perempuan jenis sialan.

Ingat.
Dunia ni berputar. I'm praying the worst for you for what you have said.
And forever you're not welcome to my house.
Ever.


Serves you right when almost nobody was happy during your wedding.
It just ruined our eidulfitri celebration.
Org nak beraya.sibuk nak berkenduri.
Even mama was not happy, her own mom.Papa apatah lagi.
I don't have to be a mind reader to tell this-it shows.huhu~



I was so mad.I didn't even snapped any pictures of the hantarans i've made.not even a single one.


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Iman.
He maybe a  lil tyrant.But he'll be sweet when u layan him right.
Dahlah you jumpa dia pun setahun skali..or maybe dua.
Dok sebut budak tu buas..buas buas buas.
Tak reti dok diam.Pemusnah alam. Perosak majlis.
What??????In front of his mother pulak tu.mmg dasar.I may be smiling.but I am nvr malu to have a child like that.
Total morons.

He's a smart boy you fools.Pernah dgr tak if a small boy is full of ideas.maknanya apa?
Maknanya- he's creative and witty.And he's neurons are all working.Budak cerdik.
Kita tgk nanti.Inshallah~

Kata rindu sgt.konon2 nya rindu sgt lama tak jumpa.
When i sent him to go beraya with my parents masa kenduri kawin itu berlangsung-everybody was at relief.
A moron even said to me, "Ai mujurlah iman takde.ikut geypa dia.klu tak punah majlis"
What???
Happy jelah bila not even 1 of the pictures of the wedding ada iman included inside.Not even 1 yerr.
Suka lah kan bila pemusnah majlis dh kena send back to my parents and sisters.
The ppl who adores and truely happy with his presence.

So-called anak sedara kesayangan.

Alhamdulillah juga lah dia ikut geypa dia beraya.
Balik umah the next day dptlah kutip RM100 rezeki.
Rezeki Iman.My sweet Iman.



Majlis kawin seterusnya me and my kids hereby declare mmg tak akan hadir.







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If not because of my love and respect to you-hubby..
I would nver want to have any connections to these kind of ppl. 
Now i know why some ppl call them as out-laws.





I'm sorry.I am just human.I write what i feel.
To make me-self feel better.
Thank you for reading.








Ps-Kecik hati since raya tak habis lagi.klu abg nak balik raya haji ni,jom.saya isteri yang patuh dan taat.Tp I'm letting you know out-loud that i'll be far happier celebrating this coming eid here.where ppl appreciate small children and don't regard them as nuisance.where ppl even love you like their own son.

Dari mana adik dpt nih?

Best nya klu ini mommy yang punye lashes? :)

Hehehe..kekurangan idea utk update di ptg jumaat yang tak berapa panas ni.dh dua tiga hari cuaca sejuk je..hatta tidur malam pun terpaksa berselimut walau tido berempat dikatil queen size yang mana mommy juga bersize queen ;p Nothing much happening around except for the coming Dept Raya celebration prep and also the RND womens potluck raya party coming :) Amsyar's also still recovering and still voice-less.poor baby~ But he's recovering strong :)



Just happy when hubby gets this email from his boss from another boss from the other dept :)

 Gentlemen,

                I would like to express my appreciation to 2 (two) of your technicians for their immediate action to repair our band saw machine due to short circuit yesterday. I can’t remember their names but one of them we call him ‘memey’.As the time is constraint due to PX-*Za  is around the corner, this effective action is really helpful for us to commit to the schedule.

Thank you again to FMD team.

Manager.

Prototype Center.

Hehe..'memey' is hubby's nickname.Good job dear.There you go :)
TQ kind boss, and he did well made sure this email reaches my hubby's superior's inbox .

Sometimes small appreciation and tQ notes could really bring you a long way along and make one's day :)

Have a great weekend y'all :)

Selamat beraya lagi dan lagi dan lagi.

Love,

Zahra

When mommy talks...

Jumaat.
Ramadhan 14th.

Just finished my pumping routine as usual.Alhamdulillah~

I don't know.I just feel down today. Maybe its just the routine exhaustion you feel by the end of the week.

I pump 5 times a day -day and nite whenever amsyar is not nursing and manage to get around 25-27oz and I'm really exhausted especially during these Ramadhan months. Amsyar drinks 6 bottles of 4oz milk daily so i cannot skip my sessions except for weekends.Is that really normal?Or my Amsyar is really getting it off in each feeding?Mmm..

I just feel so exhausted these days.Maybe it's just normal.

I'm a mother of two small boys. That should be a good excuse..hahahaha!~

Maybe it's just me.So demoralized these days with not so many task to do in the office.

Thank you Allah, we're having Nuzul Qur'an off day this monday! :)

I shall have plenty of time to myself and with my boys.

May next week be better and more motivated.Less nagging.Be a better mommy :)

Happy long weekends mommies!~

Use your time wisely though :)

Me-I just would like to lay back and watch my boys grow.

Being messy is just part of being boys :)

Love,

Zahra

WW-August Beginning

Spotted at Kesas Highway this morning.Hicom exit.
Astaghfirullahal azim.

May Allah Protect us from all these misfortune.
Amin

Ramadhan day-12

Demam

Ramai demam kat ofis arini.Team member sorg siap kena denggi.
Seksanya denggi. Teringat pas bersalin last year..kena denggi.
Aduhai..

Tapi rsnya kat ofis ni bukan takat demam biasa diorg ni.Skrg ni demam bonus [yeay!~], demam malas-sb-project on hold, and demam raya pun ada.Mood pu dh kedaung dh semua org.

Bagus juga.
Senang den nk cope and ingat balik apa yg dh ditinggalkan 2mths ago.Alhamdulillah

Ni dh 4.45pm.Dr td pun mmg dh berfikir2 apa yg nk berbuka ptg nti.Bersedia kemas2 nk turun ke surau solat asar, pam 3rd session and then chiow!!~

Selamat berbuka hari ke-11 berpuasa mommies!!~


Love,
Mommy Iman&Amsyr



Mode: Lemau

1st three days as a working mother of two :)

Salam to all mothers and ladies out there :)

Alhamdulillah..

dh hari ke-6 berpuasa insyallah..

and sudah masuk hari ke-4 sy kembali bekerja.Yeay!!

So far so good. 

Mmg agak kelam kabut nak handle 2babies at one time.

Nak kejar masak sahur, pam susu, pengurusan susu, and berbuka semua.

Berpeluh2 juga.

Tapi bila dh masuk hari ke-4, dh OK sket.

Dh bleh manage..especially waktu pagi hasil kerjasama suami isteri. I do this, you do that. i uruskan susu, bekal and baju babies-you tlg change the diapers.hehehe. Alhamdulillah by 7.10am everybody's already in the car.7.40am mcm tu dh slamat touch-in kat RND building :)

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One thing I love bila Iman dijaga oleh his babysitter kakwan is that, bila sampai umah-dia dh betul2 drained out. Mmg whole day play-play-play and kurang naps. So he's always having the blast of his days at her home..main sepuas2nya.kejar kucing, play ball,play buaian semua. 

That's really what i want in a babysitter. To have real play.To let him learn and enjoy.

Bukan melepek dpn tv dr 7am to 6pm.Sikit2 tidor..masuk buaian. Senang kerja makcik pengasuh tuh. Dh tidornya sepanjang hari.Maka akibatnya, this lil hectic toddler pun tend to be overweight, xsehat sb peluh xkeluar..asyik tidor aje.Bila smp umah mulalah active semacam..yelah dh tidornya sepangjang hari.huhu~

Sekarang both Iman and Amsyar dh dihantar ke pengasuh yg sama :)

I feel really blessed dipertemukan dgn pengasuh iman skrg : KakWan. A petite kelantanese, who is also a mother of 6.Umur pun xdelah tua sgt. This year would be 36. So baguslah, xdelah xlarat nk mengasuh anak kecil :) Alhamdulillah stakat Iman dh dkt 18mths. Belum pernah lagi ada incidents yg xmemuaskan hati. Alhamdulillah~

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Nights kat rumah pun still hectic utk mommy. Masih nak menyusu, mengemas, membasuh baju, melipat segala. 

And siapkan menu utk sahur. Mujur juga menu berbuka kebiasaannya beli aje kat bazar. Sb mmg xsempat, smpai kat rumah dh kul 7pm.Mmg letih..mmg xsempat..hehehe..alasan baik punya.hehehe

But last night was different. 

9.15pm rumah dh senyap sunyi. Hubby plak down with fever and toothache. Telan panadol after berbuka terus 'terawih' dlm mimpi ajelah. Iman pun dh tertidor dgn a bottle of Ribena after iftar sesama td. Baby Amsyar pun dh tido sejak after  Maghrib. Terkulat2 juga mommy. Bila senyap sunyi mcm tu mulalah sangap.Terus tak productive jdnya.

Sempatla juga mommy layan "Hot Guys Who Cook" at DivaUniversal 702 skjp.hahahha~

Sempatlah basuh membasuh segala mak nenek mittens,booties,feeding bottles, strerilize siap.

Before ending up sblah daddy half an hour after. Rasanya lah. Mujur tak terlajak tidor. Terjaga betul2 bila Nightline start. Klu tak alamatnya ke-suboh la kami sekeluarga kat living room.huhu~

Maybe dah biasa dgn hiruk pikuk anak2..hubby makes me don't really appreciate the opportunity to have the time to myself.Ye ke?

Ntahlah.Maybe.

**

Oklah marilah sama2 kita sambung bekerja..and pula mengepam afterwards.

Selamat Hari Khamis everybody!!

Love,

Zahra

ps-susah betul nak ambil pics iman skrg.asyik gerak ajerrrrr :p

Back to work..but..

I miss you guys...

Working day 2..still blurr.
Thinking of my kids each second.


And also waiting anxiously when the clock will tick 5.15pm.

Monday is always...

Monday the 23rd. July.

Back at work day 1.
Ramadhan day 3.
Full day pumping day 1.
Payday.
Baby Amsyar is 2MO today!Yeay!




Mode : Missing my kids badly~


ok.short entry.

Have a nice Ramdhan u guys out there :)


Love,

Zahra