Blessed

Hi peeps!

The last day of February already. How fast time flies does it? trying to living in equilibrium and manageable each day by now as we adjust to the daily routine :) Zainab n kids are already back weehoo! and we had some great family quality time last weekends with makan besar and Iman's birthday celebration and all 7 mak's grandchildren were present. Alhmdulillah.

And..

I just want to mark it here that February marks the end of my milk pumping journey (EBM collecting) for mikhail and just continuing on breast DF only when im present (weekends and night feeds). Too many things in my plate I'd say and I dont want important things to spill, so letting go few things is the best for now. Mikhail is on FM during the day (1time feed) by now..and sometimes on fresh cow milk. Well, that little muchkin..its good that he's not that fussy and easily adapts. 18 months young this month my lil #zulhayqalmikhail :)

Happy mommy for now.Aha..

March is another story. Iman's first primary school assessment, Amsyar's school registration and also the LHDN refundable claims for PCB among many in mind. They said that the election is also in March but there is no official announcement yet. I plan for a wet trip to wet world for Iman's birthday as well..but we'll see how.Be kind to us March, together inshallah may Allah ease our ways.

Love 

Zahra

Berpisah susu

Gambar macho abg amsyar satu :)

Abg amsyar sb this yr nak dpt lg dua adik spupu :)

This coming May this little boy I named Zulhafidzey Amsyar is turning 2. Alhmdulillah.

Cuma harini nak bercerita tentang cerai susu. This may not be everyone's cup of tea, but its ok, menambahkan ilmu.if you have been following my blog (really thank you for that!) i believe that u know i really write about anything, from treatments,happenings, politics, you name it. Caca merba, but this is what life is.I really love little projects to research and work with, and share some interesting findings

Alhmdulillah, amsyar was fully breastfed until 1 yr old, and then was on alternate milk until 18mths.Then mommy stopped pumping.and cont only feedings at night. Balik kerja je, mmg seronok la amsyar, bila supply full je.mommy plak kuat mkn.byk lah susunya..hahaha.Alhmdulillah..I feel so blessed. I do believe that after 1yr, when the child starts eating good food, mommy's milk is just supplementary, and of course the method for the baby to feel comfortably hugged by the mom.

But reaching 24mths ni, I feel that i had enough.

amsyar had enough feedings.sometimes he just need the cuddles which he had related with being breastfed eversince he was born. So I guess cerai susu will surely be a big deal to him.

I tried to be very gentle and subtle to not let him feel rejected. So I limit the nursing time gradually and tried to procrastinate at times, telling him.." sekejap sayang mommy mandi dulu.." or " makan nasi dulu lepas lepas ni kita minum ok". Or sometimes the drastic "susu habis lah adik..kejap lg baru ada". Cruel eh? Hahaha.

Well 2yrs is quite enough.

Some suggested to put some asam jawa.or maybe a little salt. Tp xsanggup lg kot.

Maybe gradually will work.

Night feedings pun i've limited to bedtime only. In the middle of the nights, kalau nak, kita bg botol susu. 

Tgn debab..main vacuum mommy!

I target to wholly stop by this coming 23rd of May, another 1 mth+ to go adik.Mommy know u'll survive. Ur a big boy now, kan? Don't worry mommy love you always, sayang semestinya.

Pray for me. Inshallah will be OK.

Amin.

Have a nice weekend peeps!

Love,

Zahra

I have finally resigned!

Nov 23rd, 2013

Today marks Amsyar's 18months birthday. Which also marks my 18th mths breastfeeding journey.I am more that gratitude could eventually mean to Allah for this opportunity and blessings. To be able to cope with all the ups and downs

The most feared month of the year was ramadhan.this time I had to go through twice during this journey.but Allah knows best and provide sustainance to us in all ways. Alhmdulillah I never missed sahur for all my bf days and 25oz per day was nvr less by an ounce those days.alhmdulillah.berkat ramadhan.

From all those glorious days of reaping 25-30oz per day, the journey was nvr smooth. Challenges were always there. Work load and stress may b the main culprit as for me from three times per day of pumping at work, barely to get one session was already a struggle. Ending with only 3oz per day, I was really grateful with the rezeki for my little one, amsyar.

Amsyar had gotten the opportunity to be exclusively fully one whole year on breastmilk. And that was more than a wonderful achievement for mommy! For 3months he was on formula once a day, and then started to have only one bottle of mommy's milk for the next 3mths. So sad but yet its the truth.

Thank you Allah for all the gold fluid for my baby boy. For now I have decided to end the pumping journey, and continue only direct feed at night and weekends until whenever the milk is still there.
So now, officially declared, I have stopped pumping milk.






Alhamdulillah.
What a beautiful journey.
Now continued.Until there is no more :)




XoXo

Zahra

Sleeping with the enemy :'(

It had been several nights where i heard some cricking sounds under the bed. The noise is not too subtle neither too noisy. But it was there.

Last night, i had it figured out.

It was Mr MarKus Polo!!!!!!!!!!!

The tikuss!

Euwwwww......................................................

I heard some noise before bedtime last nite and asked hubby dearies to investigate.

It turned to be a brown mouse the size of my palm.

Eeeeiiiiiiiii!

It raaaaaaaaaaaaaaan away into our closet and dissapeared. Hilang u know! Pandai menyorok!

I hope you run away tonite marcus.

I will never poison or trap you.

it's too gelilicious for me..

I don't even kill cockaroaches you know.

Please don't bite my babies

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Some unrelated pictures. Ok habislah cerita tikus. Ni kisah kehidupan pula. I am curently pumping only once a day now. For only 4-5oz. oh my! Rasa mcm nk pencen as I'm one of the senior pumpers and the crowd is getting bigger now. 

See..

This is only partial of the mommy pumping gang in the R&D building. It's good to have moral support and knowledge sharing sessions within the clan you know. A good thing as we could really sum up that the awareness for breastfeeding among working mommies is quite high now. Alhamdulillah. The trend of going back to nature and being all au natural is quite high now. Beautifully back to fitrah.

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Before going back to work, lets share the nice things in the worldly life. 

Good food!

I made a point that, the simpler the better and to have the effort to at least give my kids the taste of mommy's cooking 3times on weekdays a week. At least. It's really sad not to be there 12hrs a day. But quality is not timely based, kan? So hopefully all the efforts pay off. Inshallah.

Finally after nearly 16mths post c-sect and becoming a mommy of two, i regained back my routine, stamina, energy and composure to at least be a human. Juggling all it needs is really a struggle and I'm still not ready for number 3. Well, not just now.

Not yet.

It is now just to maintain the routine.

Inshallah.

Pray for me!

Simpler is better. Sambal sardin. Ayam kunyit. Dadar