Assalam.
Luahan hati sikit harini. Kalau sudi baca alhmdulillah.
Rezeki Allah tetapkan bukan hanya di tanda dgn gaji dan pangkat. I learned this the hard way. I strived and worked hard for titles and pangkat when there is opportunity but sometimes bila hati tak ikhlas, duit dapat cepat saja rasa pergi. And then we had this re organization circa 2016 which taught me a lot about how to become an overall better person, alhmdulillah.
I was given a huge responsibility and was paired with a very honest personality who had taught me so much great values in life. We just face whatever we could with all our energy and skills and never looked back. My people skill and knowledge grew deeper by day, and our enery level by 530 every single day was at 5% just enough to get ourselves back home. All that really matters is actually what really matters and we have to do what we have to do, with what we can. Each day was a new challenge. Each challenge a new lesson to be learnt. And by the end we were actually satisfied. I didnt really care of the tittles or levels anymore but mashallah the rezeki kept flowing in. I was really in awe with what Allah had for us for our sincerity in doing more than we should and the concept of His Adil. He will give you what you work for as He knows all what we have done. So yes, i didnt get raise but the money/bonus/incentives was more than what i will get if i had gotten the raise. I was struggling with my lhdn filings for those years (in a good way) but i was not complaining. Syukur alhmdulillah. I pushed my engineer to get a raise and kpi 4 for 3consecutive years because i believe she deserves it.
Yup i didnt get my raise but i my loans cleared for a new car, one of my dream car that me and hubs were awing all those while. I managed to get my home a lil bit improved alhmdulillah, and we had a lil bit put away for our big family holiday 2020 and a lil bit more squeezed for open tables alhmdulillah.
Being very used to simplicity, we didnt have huge wants to iphone12 or big new smart tv so thats a good thing. And we were so used to simplicity, we do not really have a long wish list to change or buy everything. I know where to get similar items cheaper and better values of items around us alhmdulillah. And hubs self taught himself to do diy works around the house, from simple carpentry to repairing and complicated wiring.so this was a major rezeki for us alhmdulillah. I was always the creative director and he was the executor.lol. Once he did all the wirings, lamps and fans for the whole 2 storey house of his lil brother..which had saved his brother around 2k. I know this 2k value will come back around to us in a lot of other versions for us to help them dgn ikhlas.
We always work as a team, and jangan berkira. You do you. Dan perkahwinan ni sebenarnya medan memberi, ibadat kita paling panjang sepanjang hayat kita. Nak sentuh bab kawin ni mashallah..syukur sangat Allah kurniakan suami yang sangat sangat sabar dgn segala kerenah kita. Kalau nak kira buruk dia tu..tak setanding buruk kita. Suami adalah hadiah untuk kita- medan pahala kita, dan kita rebut pahala untuk memberi dan memberi. And whatever we bring back to the table we share. I think that is one of the things yang murahkan lg rezeki flow untuk kami. Ikhlas antara satu sama lain dan sentiasa ada rasa hormat dan integiti. Yups integriti. You do you ni besar makna and konteks dia sbnrnya. Jgn bandingkan diri dgn kwn kwn yg gaji 15k tapi jmpa 3bulan sekali. Rezeki dia sabar berseorangan 3bulan, then dia boleh reap his/her happiness dgn tidur 5d4n hotel St Regis Langkawi. Itu rezeki dia. You do you. Husband dia maybe poket tebal tapi muka tak hensem anak semua ikut muka dia. Itu rezeki dia. You do you. Husband dia kaya raya duit juta juta tapi umur dah 60, kadang kadang boleh bangun kadang kadang langsung tidak..so you do you.
Masa masa susah kita cuba juga untuk memudahkan org lain, kalau bukan dgn duit, dengan kudrat, dengan know how kita. Kalau tak boleh memudahkan, cukuplah cuba elak untuk menyusahkan. Betul kadang kadang kita terlalu letih emosi dan tubuh boleh membuat kan hati org lain terluka dgn kata kata kita, jadi sentiasalah terbuka meminta maaf sesama sendiri, dan yg penting, pisahkan urusan kerja dan peribadi..kalau marah dgn org hal kerja, keep it professional, kita marah sebab kerja sahaja tp kalau diluar kerja dia ttp kwn kita, rakan sejawatan kita, ha begitulah
So yeah, konsepnya mudah, do all you can do with all you have and leave it all to the Arrazaq to send His Rizq back to what you deserved. Yang ni saya baru sedar dan baru pegang setelah berperit belajar dari pengalaman lalu. Dan satu juga lagi benda yg saya belajar ttg jgn berkira kira dgn keluarga. Waktu kami ke utara tahun lepas, saya mmg tak limitkan berapa ibu mertua saya nak belanja saya bayar kan saja. You name it, makan ke, kedai ka, even we left my lil brother in law some knowing that he has none, and surprisingly, duit tu mcm ada ja..tak luak luak.mashallah miracle sungguh..Allahuakbar!
Moga kisah ni jadi iktibar dan ingatan utk diri sendiri ttg konsep rezeki. Jgn lah dok gelabah ayam kira duit org, pangkat org, jiran mana beli emas ka, kwn mana tukar kereta ka..because you dont know what they had done and gone through to deserve the Rizq of that much.
Syukur seadanya. Hidup seadanya
Love
Mommy Z
