TNTC = Trying not to conceive

TNTC (trying not to conceive) is in fact the same level of hard work as to TTC (trying to conceive).
Still looking for options out there, where in my case to naturally work with the biological clock does'nt work.
I think Allah has written for me that i should have c-sects for if i did had a SVD- perhaps I'll be conceiving every year (ok-i don't want to imagine that!).

Yet, I did had two babies on my 2nd anniversary which I don't regret.
(9mths with Iman + 6mths gap + 9mths with amsyar =24mths!). Alhamdulillah..I'm in bliss!


But the next one will sure be a loooong time more to go.
Mommy need to do some body maintainance (and repair as well!)
And Iman & Amsyar shall be needing all the attention from mommy and daddy..
At least for 5yrs to come :)

Still looking on options.
May Allah permudahkan.



Zahra


*I asked the nurse who was giving me options for contraception - do we have implanons on men? She just laughed and said that if there even was ever existed-men will never be willing to endure the small pain of the procedure.lerr.. (--!)

**Remembered overhearing a conversation among male colleagues in the office talking about the pain of 'cabut gigi'..haha..cabut gigi?wonder if they need to go under the knife consciously for c-sect or endure natural child birth..that's real pain babeh..heheheeheh

Pantang Day 8

Alhamdulillah, amsyar is already 1week old and growing fast :)
Dah brapa kali kena hempuk dgn abg Iman, I think amsyar will grow up tough..hehehe..

So far so good, and mommy's scar is healing well. Just having the 2nd c-sect is not a very good opt actually as you could feel the pain doubles in the healing process.If i could turn back time i would really fight for a vbac as i have no complications at all during this pregnancy except poor spacing.

So bila dh rasa sakit tu..pandai-pandailah nak berpantang segala kan?Actually, if my mom finds out I'm crunching on my stomach typing this-abeslah..hehe..

Baby amsyar is a good baby. Nangis sb lapar..then tido. No merengek..no meragam.
With a dimple on his cheek, he looks exactly like daddy..clone daddy.My sweet Amsyar.
Red warrior yg ber IC putrajaya :) And now i have two :)

Dimple adek alek sana..xnampok

Our breastfeeding journey this time was not as tough as with Iman as well.
Ive learnt my lesson well..breast or nothing. So at the hospital me and my mom were struggling to help baby amsyar latch properly.Me, lack of experience in direct feeding was really devastated at first when amsyar was not naturally a good latcher..but my mom was really determined and persistent.Still on epidural for the first 3days, I was energy-less, uncomfortable with a needle still attached on my spine and nearly gave up.
Thank you mom. I really owe a lot on you..i love you :)

I owe a lot to my husband (love and kisses to you abg!) and my mom especially for Amsyar's delivery.
And also to my brother's and dad for taking care of Iman. No word could ever describe my appreciation to them. Alhamdulillah we are here today..recovering well :)



Actually there's a lot to share.
Especially what I've discovered on sibling rivalry among my children, how to manage my own self during the pantang period and how being happy could effect on your milk production (i'm much more happier having my pantang in my mom's home compared to being with my in-laws) and also my experience in HPtrajaya which was great. Better, they serve post natal menu after you deliver which complies with what your mom would serve you :)



I'll try to update from time to time.

*can't wait for sister zakiyya to come home!


Till then


Zahra

2 Beautiful years - Alhamdulillah~

Aku rela hidup dengan mu
Demi bahagia…
Hanya Tuhan bisa memisahkan kita

Jaga dan lena kukuntum kerinduanku
Untuk mempersembah sayang padamu
Keharuman bunga tak seharumnya cintaku
Istimewa untuk sunting jiwamu

Bermula pandang pertama
Kau utuskan senyum mesra
Aku ingin seribu tahun lagi
Bersamamu…

Kubinakan mu istana
Aku rendakan bahagia
Dengan niat suci
Kaulah permaisuri raja dihati :)

Sambutlah cinta abadi
Genggam dan semat di hati
Manisnya asmara
Kekal selamanya

28th May 2010
Marking our 2nd Anniversary :)


Abg,
There is no words to decribe how grateful I am to have a soulmate like you :)














This is a scheduled entry as I'm afraid I shall not be able to write during our anniversary.
If all are well, lil baby Z is already here to celebrate this historical day with mommy and daddy and abgIman :)





Love,

Zahra

My Second Red Warrior! :)

Alhamdulillah, all things went well and here we're already home :)

Introducing :

Baby Zulhafidzey Amsyar Zulhalimey

" the one who guards (our guardian),  Amsyar = yang active (cergas!)"

23rd May 2012

Our pride, our prince, our lil guardian angel, our legacy.







*So now let's get along with the pantang..day 4.another 40days to go!~







Love,
Zahra

Pregnant with Dengue?

Last saturday was a teribble day for me..the contraction was really hard.
And my stomach was hardening frequently. I even missed the FA finals game and only managed to bergolek2 atas my mom's bed :'(

The next day we went to Putrajaya Hospital for assessment.
I was put on CTG. No opening yet, but baby's amnion fluid was a minimum and heart beat was 170.
Quite high I was told.
My heart beat was also high, BP 145/90.. and down with fever pulak so I was put on IV drip.
Blood drawn for tests.
Habis two bottles of fluid, I was told that they suspected dengue.what?

Balik rumah, I was shivering. similar conditions when i was down with dengue last year. aches in joints.
Oh no..I am denying this. Please.
I really really hope it's really not dengue.

Whilst not pregnant pun siksanya..mashallah.
Ni pulak waktu waktu genting tunggu masa je adeQ nk lahir.

I have to come back on Tuesday.
If yes, I'm down with denggi-they will schedule to cut me open this Wednesday.
Let baby come out to see the world :)

Because pregnant with denggi is a really threatening condition. OMG!






Hopefully everything comes out right..
Hopefully everything has it's own hikmah against it.
Hopefully this baby survives, even if mommy doesn't :(






If really, mommy doesn't survive- and Iman and adeq are big enough to read this.
Do remember mommy loves both of you so much, each and every second mommy will always be watching upon both of you :)

Take care of yourself and take care of daddy too.
Abg Iman - Jgn nakal2 and sayang adeq tau :)



*xbaik kan ckp mcm ni?mm..xpelah. mati itu mmg pasti. Hidup sampai bila, tu je yg belum tentu lagi. betul tak?

**malam ni 1Rejab. Malam doa mustajab. Jom kita berdoa berjamaah bersama2 semua :)



Love,

Mommy